Saturday, December 26, 2009
I'm so these days lahhh. I have nothing to do, nothing to occupy my time with, nothing in mind -- BAHH. I think that boredom sucks more than those weary marching band days. I think.
Maybe I'll spend my Sunday in the library? I DON'T KNOW.
Aimlessness and boredom is making my life hell. I should start on my reading, though. I've never gotten around to finishing Pride and Prejudice because the text were too tiny in my version! And there's Sense and Sensibility, The Gift, Sherlock Holmes...
Hmm I know where to start already ;D
BAI!
Stephanie ♥
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
YO! I'm back from Singapore and am very happy with Malaysia. Wooots! Everything suddenly seems way more economical and affordable.
If only I could split myself into two, I'd love to go to Genting as well. But as I can't, oh well, I'm fine with it.
Singapore was good. Not brilliantly-good, not fantastically-good, but good enough for enjoyment. I didn't get to go for much sightseeing and that was really disappointing. Hence the statement.
However I did meet plenty of people -- many of them are simply lovely!
Note: Many, not all x)
We saw too! Yuee Sun, please don't get jealous. You're not the only one who thinks that she's awesome, haha! Orchard road at night looks fab! The only downside of it all was the crowd -- it was H.U.G.E.. Oh, and smokers too. Smokers suck big time.
I had tons of fun during my last night in Singapore! The party JJC organized was an absolute blast! It topped prom night, no doubt. Because our attire was super comfy. I am all for partying in my slippers. My feet didn't hurt. I didn't have to look awesome to feel that.
In a nutshell, Singapore was good. Ugh, I'm repeating myself. Great, even. I still prefer Malaysian food (especially Malaysian Mamee monster!).
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I didn't post up anything about prom. Photos are available at Facebook. It was nice and I'd especially enjoyed the girl time with Miaw! We had our hair done at a saloon for less than RM40 and my makeup is totally DIY. Don't get jealous lah, I'm sure those who had theirs done professionally would look better. So yeah :)
Since everyone was gonna wear black or white, I'd decided to ditch the black dress I'd bought beforehand. I'll think of it as a future investment (quote Sophie Kinsella). My mom bought me a purple dress (its my favorite colour, after all :D) and it looked okay on me.
I'd given up on the "perfect dress" idea, by the way. It seems pretty impossible to me now. But then again, now I do know more about where to go to get good dresses. And and and... I'd gotten my 3 inch stilettos! Woots! It was worth it. Worth every single cent. Because they didn't disappoint me and stayed intact throughout the night!
Kai Foong's shoe very sad case lor. LOL! Wai Yeen looked super smart! As if he's some kinda businessman (currently in the making) already. So that marks the end of my high school life. I feel a little nostalgic, but that's only normal. I'm reading to leave everything for a new beginning already! Even though now I feel as if I need a compass really badly... and someone to teach me how to read it.
Stephanie ♥
Friday, December 4, 2009
You know what? Its amazing that I've went on this long without blogging. Oddly, I feel rather proud of it, as if its an achievement of some kind. I abandoned twitter too in time of its growing popularity. My social circle is getting smaller.
CHANGE, people.
I've been an avid Facebook user throughout the period of my absence, though. People who are nice enough to entertain me are Miaw, Joyce, Yuee Sun, Sherwin and some of my classmates. Yes I know I'm so boring. I suppose that the obvious reason (SPM, duh) would suffice to make you swallow any qualms you have had.
I think that my period is coming soon. My temper has been running out of control lately. I have resorted to violence and throwing stuff around. Its very childish, I suppose, but its the only way I vent it all out. There is too much anger in me, and I can't suppress it any longer. The exams are taking a toll on me, and its NOT GOOD.
My mother doesn't love me. If she does, then she has a warped idea of what love is. She is so ignorant, it stuns me. In my books, ignorance is practically a sin. But you know what? I was never destined for a happy life. Reality is shoving itself into my face more and more often. Its not a pretty picture.
I'll never treat my children the way I'm treated. I'll never deprive them of parental concern and encouragement. NEVER. I'm done with for the day. Ciao.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I MISS .
Can't wait till tomorrow! Lalaleee~ I'm more interested in the part after school, haha. Oh this year has been good to me... but nevertheless bumpy along the ride.
We'd gotten our yearbooks today!! Wheee~ Class page looking good! Not perfect, but good enough. Haha. Those photos bring memories of those days alive. Those were the days, man. Not as much stress as now and much more fun-filled!
Phase 2 of life starts soon.
I've gotta buck up. SPM SPM SPM. Those dreary words haunt me. I can't throw everything into the sky and depend on lady luck. Not anymore. Even so, I'll always, always try my best.
Personally, I'm not too pleased with the choice of colour for the cover of the yearbook... but I'll let it slide. Its in an unattractive shade of green, which I'm really NOT keen on. Anyway its content that matters most (:
I'm so convincing that I'd succeeded in convincing myself.
But in reality, looks DO matter. A lot, in fact.
And I miss a certain someone QUITE badly. Its time to let go yet, no?
Quote Joyce (accurately, this time xD):
All ugly people are vain but not all vain people are ugly.
To those ugly people who aren't vain, you know who to find lah xD
Good luck, CYY. You know I love you banyak banyak. Yet you love me less than someone! But I'll not hold a grudge against you for this, because this is so you xD
Stephanie ♥
Monday, November 2, 2009
I can't wait till farewell party! I hope that there're things to eat... if not then Alyssa or the other O.C.s should be obliged to inform me beforehand so that I can get my fill of maggi goreng at Kanna's in the morning. Yum, maggi goreng :)
I have awesome presents for my dear clarinetists! Zip-a-dee-doo-dah~~
Well, I L-O-V-E those things I'd gotten you guys, so naturally, they're awesome. And I'll not be the least offended if you were to return the presents to me (no refund, sorry!) because I'd gladly take it for myself :D
Poor Miaw had an allergy attack this morning. She is now under self quarantine. Joking la, she is on sick leave. On the last 2 days of school too. Boo! This is a very sad end to secondary school life indeed. No more eyeing the cheese lover, sigh.
I haven't been blogging nor twittering for ages. However, I've been playing Mafia Wars daily -- until yesterday. This is so sad. I have wasted an energy pack, sobsob.
But I have been attending numerous tuition classes of late. I am seeing improvement in my dismal add maths. Hurray! There're like one, two, three... TWELVE MORE SUBJECTS to work on for those praiseworthy A+s! As I think of this sad fact, my world turns bleak almost instantaneously.
REALLY!
My form of entertainment in school these days are revision and the occasional gossip! Some people are acting very disgustingly in class and it is such a turnoff. Goodness. I can tolerate many things, but not whiny voices, annoying cackles and snide comments from an alien (quote Pn. Joyce). The audacity of this person!
I am left speechless. Literally.
I like Joyce's theory after she made amendments to it. Her theory is: ugly people are vain, and ironically, not all beautiful people are.
But if her theory is wrong, she will be wronged... because the ugly people who aren't vain will hate her for making that statement! Haha.
SCHOOL. IS. FUN.
Yay! 2 more days, 2 more days.
Stephanie ♥
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
属于 - 梁静茹
我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
That is my current favorite song. Its so sad -- it totally matches me these days. I'm not sad all the time though, I'm just sad when I'm like, alone and in my thoughts. That's when I feel like the world is upside down and all of a sudden bitterness just creeps into me.
I am my own's worst enemy. Oh there are definitely worst enemies out there but then I do know myself best. My weaknesses. My strengths. Not that I have many to boast of. But there are those far few.
I am not succeeding in making myself feel better :/
You know what? I can totally relate to Brutus when we're doing questions that require you to take a stand. I like sitting on the fence. But in terms of character, I think that I like Cassius better. I don't really feel like revealing why. I'll be a laughing stock if I did. Or so I think.
Distractions. I'd allowed myself to succumb to them.
But how very lovely this distraction is!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
For once, I am at a loss for words.
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I'm starting my 纪念册, finally. The pressure is getting to me. There are only 10 more schooling days left. Oh god oh god. I just hope that there's enough time for me to let other people write in. I am such a procrastinator, really. I remember that way back in primary school, I hadn't had enough time and I was picky. People who did not appeal to me did not get the chance to write in my book. That was last time la.
I hope that farewell comes soon because then only I will get back my RM25 from Alyssa Remesh Natesan. Whether she gets her money back or not. Don't mix things together, Alyssa. Tsk tsk. I am giving you a very valuable lesson on life. You don't tell your boss to get the money you owe him from your cousin, do you? Same case.
Today was boring with a capital B. How I envy those 5S2 and 5S5 people. You guys get a bonus of 10 for your english paper!! So those with results over 90% get the maximum 100%! My jaw dropped open when I heard of that. Literally. I wish that Sharmini would just hurry up and give us back our English papers already. I was so so shocked when she was the first teacher to give us back our exam papers. I thought that she was finally turning over a new leaf.
But leopards don't change their spots, do they?
She only returned one of the two papers =.=
I want to score within my own capability lah. I don't need bonuses -- unless it determines your grade la. As in those X9 marks.
Sigh. More next time.
Stephanie ♥
I should have done this earlier. I know I am such a procrastinator. I'm not gonna use my Literature trials as an excuse either. Oh just ignore this and look at the next line.
I would post up a photo of us if I had one. I don't >.<
I would post up a photo of the card I made you if I had snapped a photo of it. I didn't.
I owe you. BIG TIME. And you can always remind me about it in exchange for favours. I won't deny you of that right :)
You are an awesome possum friend, and much of what I intend to say to you is already in the card. But the world has a right to know about how great you are. So, you are by far the most cheerful person I've met. And, you really care about your friends. It is really so rare these days to have a friend who is so attentive without any hidden agendas or evil thoughts.
I'll have to add in something about your tolerance level. You are patient, you don't blow up or get pissed off at things that annoy you alot (there is still a line, though, and its really hard to cross yours). But when you tear, its horribly terrifying. To me. I am at a lost when you're upset, and for that I offer you my apologies for not knowing what to do or what could I do to make you feel better.
One day you should pay a visit to a hot spring. You get me :)
You are an absolute gem of a friend (hey, it rhymes!) and I feel privileged to know you, lest of all be your friend. Good luck, stay happy and your life will be a bed of roses (albeit those thorns!).
Love,
Stephanie.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I think, that I will be missing a lot of things after SPM.
First and foremost, school.
Next, tuition. And my tuition mates.
It had been a wonderful 2 years, really. Life was great and I had learned so, so much. Of course, it wasn't the ideal bed of roses I initially had in mind, but its good enough.
I'm feeling kinda nostalgic now. Physics tuition is ending real soon. I'll miss them people. We all came from the same primary school. There's big headed Wei Lian (kidding la), big mouthed Yu Zhi (not kidding), quiet Teck Hong, sleepy Xingkun, and Chee Yee who is Idunnoknowtodescribe.
Yes, I'm the only girl there. It was a little odd in the beginning, but anyone could get used to it.
Recently I have been having plenty of laughs in tuition with Lily, Louise, Su Saint, Juosie and Karluis. They're a funny, witty, lively and interesting lot.
Tuitions really are kinda nice. Graduation is nearing, and I'm not gonna miss school, seeing as how I won't be able to go to CHS as a student in the very near future. Gasp! It has been five years already. Primary school graduation feels like yesterday. Well actually not really la since yesterday I was at tuition with Lily they all and tuition with Joyce afterward. But you get the idea.
Oh I don't feel like continuing. Why ruin my day (even though its almost over)?
After SPM then only I'll worry about stepping into a new phase in life.
Excitement?? Reality hasn't really hit me yet.
I wished that I could have done better in today's exam. I still can't get over the fact that Miss Leela trusted us enough to leave us alone for a quarter of an hour. It is an exam!! Well, in any case I didn't cheat la. It wasn't necessary and I really wanted to test my level of understanding (yes, it is Stephanie talking here). This is English Literature, people!
A song is running in my head right now. Its 给我一首歌的时间 by Jay Chou. Weird. I don't even like that song that much. And this Realtek thing on my computer is a Realnuisance. It kecoh-ed me in my Spot the Difference!! Dulannya. There's a time limit too!
If I could just figure out how to uninstall it...
Sigh. I really need to brush up on my computing knowledge. Or else I will fish again (Northern Antivirus xD). It was Yuee Sun who'd pointed out my error. I blame it on Caesar. Because he had described himself as the northern star and caused me to mix up everything.
By the way, Yuee Sun (yes you again), I was right about the spelling of Titinius. But I muddled up Cassius' suicide with Brutus'. Stupid stupid. I don't like how Shakespeare names his characters. Most of their names end with -ius. Its so hard to say if you're saying Brutus' shoes, for example. Or Cassius' beard. I hope he doesn't have a beard. Yuck.
So today was another study day. If I go to tuition, I benefit. If I don't, I go back to Mafia Wars. Simple theory, really.
I can't wait to go school tomorrow! It'll be so much fun meeting up with my buddies! Seeing as how we aren't gonna be seeing much of each other after graduation... OH NO I FORGOT TO MAKE KAI FOONG'S BIRTHDAY CARD. Shit. I made Joyce's birthday card, though. Upon a stroke of inspiration from... me.
See, when I don't update in a long time, I'll have tons to update the next time! This post is solid proof. I think that I have to go make Kai Foong's birthday card already. Inspiration will hit me in another 3-2-1 seconds. No actually it didn't. But it'll come soon. Haha.
Bye! Have a great day~
